New, not improved, and certainly not edible in most countries

Hello followers and readers alike! I hope everyone’s November 27th was fine, regardless if you celebrated the holiday or not. I’ve been away due to forgetting that I have a blog, which I really shouldn’t do considering I read other peoples’ blogs? It’s confusing to be me sometimes.

But here we are and here we go. I’ve been debating on sharing this bit of information for some time, but ultimately I decided that I needed to share it. It’s not for the sake of getting the attention over it, but merely if it helps someone somewhere, or for the real reason of helping my itchy fingers.

So. Where to start? I guess I’ll just start at the beginning and go from there. (Forgive me if I ramble a little bit. I’m not used to typing my thoughts out, though I really ought to be.)

Hubby and I. And I know that is an improper sentence, but it is just that. We are a we and an us and a couple. Two months ago we weren’t doing so great. But really it begins farther back than that. Months, possibly years ago, things started to not go so great and it was all my fault. I’m not being hard on myself either, it really is my fault. I was trying to hide a big part of who I was and it was hurting our relationship. The secret. The lie. I just couldn’t do it anymore. Now this part may spark some incitement, but really it’s an opinion and since this is my blog, I’m sharing my opinion. Funny that.

I don’t believe in true monogamy. Now don’t get me wrong I believe in true love, but I also believe that it doesn’t just have to happen with one person. I know there are a lot of debates that go on anyway about soul mates and whatnot, but the way I see it is… I want to word this just right so bear with me. The way I believe and see things is I think it’s narrow minded to believe that you are only capable of loving one person, like that. I’m not saying that in the future I’m going to love someone near as much as my hubby, which I’ve explained to him lots of times, but I don’t think he will be the only person I love. Now I do believe in the love where you only really have stars in your eyes for one person, and I feel there are levels to love. I do. I know the basic ones are things like love for your parents, children, friends, household appliances. (Don’t judge.)

It started when I was very young. I couldn’t say how old exactly, but I always knew I was different. I know a lot of people say that, but I really truly believe that I am wired differently. I saw four people in the grocery store, two guys and two gals, just hanging off of each other in a romantic fashion. Without getting weird, I’ve always been sexually aware of things. No I wasn’t molested, I just always “knew” about sex. And while I watched them, besides my mother having a fit of the heebee jeebees (spelling?), I just knew that they were all together. And I just remember thinking. I want that. Sometime down the road, I knew I would have that. Watching them together, how happy they all were, it just felt right. It felt like the most normal thing to be watching. No weirder than if it was only two of them together. Fast forward many years and I still felt that way, but I was worried about it being a bad thing. When I entered my first relationships something seemed off. When hubby and I got together, things felt less off, but I always had that nagging in the back on my head. And so I tried to hide to it. In doing so, I killed my libido almost completely. I made him insane from not letting him take care of his needs, which I am scarlet to admitting. There are, well were only a couple of people who knew that, and it was because of the shame I felt. I just let it dig into me and eat away my lust.

And for the sake of time and potential boredom, I’ll skip the conversation we had and the heartache that almost was. He jokes often that I’m sewing oats, but ultimately when I told him, he gave me this “duh” look and said, “I’ve been waiting for years for this to start!” Because, oh yeah, we had this conversation years ago that I completely forgot about! Hooray for my brain and the things it chooses to remember. So what are we doing about it? Well we’ve entered into the swinging scene, for lack of better terminology. And I do have to say that it has given us a boost in our relationship. I guess I can see how some people would say we are just spicing things up, but it feels like so much more is going on.

To us sex is just sex. Not with each other I should clarify, but with other people. I’ve personally never understood how it makes sense that you no longer lust for other people after getting with someone. That goes completely against human nature. Humans want more and more of whatever they can get their hands on. We see this example every day in every day life. It doesn’t stop when you reach the bedroom. When I say monogamy is a lie, I mean it. I really feel that when someone gets with their partner then they are only making the choice to be with that one person. They are choosing to ignore the feelings of lust or wanting for someone else because why? Because it’s “wrong.” I won’t get into morals or religion or any affiliations of the two, but we all know why, and not why.

When I’m having sex with another man, my husband is right there with me. I don’t want to put too many racy details on here, but when he’s holding me while we’re having fun with someone else, or kissing me, or looking into my eyes… I can’t really describe the feeling, the sensation of just how utterly right it feels. How fulfilled I am at the moment. It makes no never mind to me the judgement I’ll receive over it either. Does it make me a slut? In one’s opinion. In another’s it’s just us doing what humans do. And boy howdy, no matter what restriction is applied, humans love fucking. Plain and simple.

I love my hubby more and more with every session we have. I get up in the morning after we’ve had our fun and there’s not a moment that doesn’t pass up where we’re not happy. I like to call it my destressing sessions because it really does help with that. Throughout the day, we’ll find each other catching a look at the other and just smile. Or we’ll sit and talk about it and get excited for the next time. If we’ve not had a good session, then we find a way to joke about it or the person and it’s ours. It’s what we share and there’s no better feeling for me. I love it when I go to work the next day and I’m just grinning to myself thinking about what I’ve done and how taboo it would be to talk about it. It’s exhilarating and totally freeing. And I have to say that it’s definitely taught me so much! I’d never thought about most of the things I’ve encountered thus far. It’s been a great learning experience and I really could not nor have wanted to do this without him.

 

Janice – Meeting With Herself

Janice awoke with a start. She sat up in bed, still groggy. She laid back down and groaned, sinking into her pillow. She was soaked and once again had no one to take care of it for her. She felt like crying out, but she knew that would just bring her roommates running. She had that dream about him again. They seemed to be happening more frequent recently. She shifted in bed and rolled over, her eyes meeting her reflection. She began talking to it. “You waste all that time at your job teasing him and you never take that one chance. What kind of woman are you supposed to be anyway?” Janice could have sworn she saw understanding in her reflection’s eyes, but blew it off. She had a meeting to attend in a few hours anyway.
She rolled out of bed, getting to her feet and stretching. Her long shapely body stretched up as she yawned. Her short nighty raised up some, showing off her flat stomach. Her nipples poked through the thin material. They were so hard they hurt. Janice would give anything to have someone here to help her. She’d give anything to have.. “Damien.” The name slipped off her lips in a sigh. She walked into the bathroom and turned on the light. She turned on the shower and unclothed herself. She slipped into the hot water. She washed her hair, making sure to get all the soap out it, then tended to washing her body. Rubbing the wash cloth over her nipples just made it worse. She had to have some relief if she was going to be sane for the rest of the day. She rubbed the cloth over her pussy, which just made it more wet. She groaned at how good it felt. She rinsed the soap off and set the cloth on the rack. Janice began to rub and pinch her nipples. It hurt and felt good at the same time. She kept one hand working on her nipples and slid the other one down her body. She felt her clit and began to rub it slowly. She moaned softly and kept rubbing it, pinching it gently. Her hand began to pick up speed within a few minutes. She was making herself so hot. Janice looked around the shower for something to play with. She remembered her vibrator was in her room. “Shit.” She turned off the shower and semi-toweled off.
Janice entered her room and went straight to her bed, reaching into the drawer on the nightstand, grabbing her vibrator. She laid down and starting rubbing her clit more furiously. She placed the vibrator at the entrance of her pussy and pushed. She was so wet that she didn’t need the lube she normally needed. Janice moaned as she began to move the vibrator in and out slowly. “Ohh…” Janice closed her eyes and imagined that it was a cock moving in and out of her. “Yeah a vibrating one.” She giggled to herself. Janice started to move the vibrator faster. She breathed harder and faster as she worked her hand. “Oh yes.” She breathed. “That’s the spot..” Janice closed her eyes again and fucked herself harder. Now if only she could be able to put her mini vibrator in her ass…
Janice pinched at her clit, clawed at her nipples and moaned louder. She was getting close to cumming but knew it wouldn’t be as satisfying. She fucked her cunt harder and faster, wanting to cum so bad. She moved her hips wanting it so bad. She finally came with a cry that said that it was fun but not satisfying enough. Janice lay there with her eyes closed, covered by her arm. She heard a small noise but thought nothing of it. “Why is it never satisfying enough?” She whispered. “Maybe you need help.” “Yeah maybe.” Janice sat up with a start. “Who said that?” “Why I did.” She looked around her room. She looked at the mirror. Her reflection, or so she thought, was sitting a different way. Janice rubbed her eyes like she was seeing something. It sounded like her, but she wasn’t sure. “Did you say something?” Her reflection looked up at her. “Mmhmm. I did.” Janice sighed. “Ok, now I know I’m losing it.” Her reflection smiled at her. “No Janice, you’re not.” She got up off the bed and started to walk towards her. Janice sat stunned watching.
The image of herself came out of the mirror and walked up to her. Janice looked up at her reflection. Somehow, she seemed different. She smiled at her. “Aren’t you going to say anything?” Janice looked up into her own face, but yet it wasn’t hers. She had the same hair, the same smile, and her eyes… There was something about her eyes that made her seem completely unreal. She reached down and brushed a lock away from Janice’s face. “I know what you need Janice. I can help you.. If you’ll let me?” Janice sat stunned. “What… What are you?” Her reflection smiled again. “I’m you Janice. I’m your every wish, you’re every need, anything and everything you are is what I am.” “What do I call you.” She leaned down and whispered in her ear, “You don’t have to call me anything.” Janice looked into her eyes. Her reflection leaned close, her lips a breath away from Janice‘s. “Anything…” She pushed forward and kissed her gently. Janice’s eyes closed as she kissed this woman back. Her lips felt the same as they moved against hers. The woman laced her finger’s through Janice’s and she laid her back. She kissed her lips, her neck, moving just the way Janice did.
She traveled lower, nipping at her breasts. She swirled her tongue around Janice’s nipple, biting it gently. Janice moaned as this… her reflection began to pleasure her. She moved from one nipple to the other, repeating the motions. She slid her hands down Janice’s body, raking her nails across her skin. Janice shuddered, then moaned when her fingers found her clit. It was already throbbing. The woman traveled lower still. Janice watched as she left her nipples to trail kisses and bites down her body. She groaned out loud when her lips found Janice’s pussy. She sucked and licked at her clit, tugging it gently with her teeth, causing Janice to gasp and squirm on the bed. She couldn’t help but watch this woman who was her reflection. She looked at Janice, and what she saw was frightening. She had fangs and her eyes were a deep amethyst. She bit Janice’s inner thigh, and started to suck on it. She could feel a little bit of pain but mostly pleasure. Janice threw her head back and moaned. The woman started to eat Janice out hard. She sucked on her clit and bit it. She flicked her tongue over it repeatedly. Janice started to shake. No one had ever eaten her pussy this good. “Oh God.” The creature lifted her head and smiled. She had blood dripping from her lips. Janice moaned at the sight of it. The creature crawled up her body and kissed Janice hard. Her head spun from the kiss. She leaned over and asked her. “Do you want more? I can be so much more than this.” Janice gulped hard. “What are you?” The creature smiled wickedly. “I’m anything and everything you want. I can be whatever you need me to be. And right now I think I know what you need.”
The creature stood up, standing at the foot of the bed. She began to change. Her breasts shrunk until they were the size of a man’s, and her pussy transformed into a thick and beautiful cock. It was about eight inches long and two and half inches wide. Janice felt like she could drool over a cock that beautiful. The creature’s facial features changed as well. The hair grew longer and blacker. The eyes became the color of a sparkling gray. Janice gasped as she realized that she had seen this face before. The more she thought about it, the more it came to her. The body transformed as she thought. It became muscular and taller. It was like she was watching a science fiction film. She grinned as she heard the creature speak. He had a deep husky voice that sent chills down her spine.
“What do you want to do to me?” Janice stared at him with a hunger that she wasn’t sure of where it came from. The creature smiled at her. Janice got up and stood before him. She was only inches away from him. “I want to suck your cock.” The creature smiled at her. “Then please, do as you will to me.” Janice reached out and grabbed his hands. They felt warm, not cold like she expected. As if he could read her thoughts, he smiled. She pulled him to her then pushed him back on the bed. She knelt down in front of him and thought about this “thing” that had come to her. She nipped at his legs, starting with his muscular thighs. She reached his sac and gently flicked her tongue over it. He groaned some. She swirled her tongue around on it, massaging it as she did so. He lay there as she pleasured him. It had been so long since she had the touch of another person.
Janice began to stroke his cock as she sucked on his balls. She squeezed at the base and worked her way up. He moaned and ran his fingers through her hair, tugging her head up. He knew that he was supposed to let her have what she wanted but he had to feel her mouth on his cock. Janice lifted her head and licked his cock slowly, running her tongue up and down the length of him. She swirled her tongue around the head and placed her lips on the tip. Slowly she opened her mouth and took him inside. She sucked gently while stroking the length of him. He moaned low, pushing gently on the back of her head. Janice slipped her head down slowly, sucking harder as she went. She took all of him in her mouth and began to move slowly. He moved his hips up and down in time with her mouth fucking. She slid her tongue back and forth across his shaft, sucking harder on it. “Yeah that’s it, suck my cock.” He breathed while pulling on her hair.
Janice moaned again, feeling her pussy juice drip down her thigh. He smiled as he heard the slithering of her wetness. He moaned again as she sucked harder. “Janice, come to me. I must taste you.” Janice stood up and positioned herself so they were in a sixty-nine position. He pulled her over him, licking her inner thigh and then pulled down roughly. She went back to sucking his cock. She swirled her tongue around the head. He seemed to like that with the way he breathed in. He sucked on her clit as she worked her tongue on his cock. She moved her tongue in a “come hither” movement, all up and down his cock. He pulled her hair roughly, taking her mouth away from him. Janice looked back at him. His eyes had darkened to a silver that shone deeply. “What’s the matter? Did I do something wrong?” He smiled at her. “No Janice, you did nothing wrong.” He sat up, moving her with him. He caressed her breasts from behind and bit at her earlobe. She shuddered and tilted her head for him. He licked her ear and whispered. “I want you to ride me Janice. I want you to ride me hard and fast.” He bit her earlobe. Janice nearly cried out from the pleasure.
He laid back and she turned around, straddling him, sitting just inches above his throbbing fuck tool. She lowered herself down on it, holding onto the base, squeezing gently. They both gasped as the head popped in and moaned in unison as she slid down on it. She settled into place and began to ride him slow, getting used to the feel of his huge cock in her. Janice rode him in a slow steady rhythm. He had his head back on the pillow, eyes closed. He looked like he was in a deep concentration. Janice leaned down over him and whispered in his ear. “Tell me what you want.” His eyes opened and locked with hers. He grinned wickedly and pulled her down to him. Just inches away from her lips he said, “I want you to fuck me.. Hard.” She grinded down on him, her cunt juices slipping out and dripping down his sac. He groaned and placed his hands on her hips, holding her as she fucked him harder and harder. She tossed her head back, moaning. It felt so good, and it had been such a long time since she had an actual cock in her.
Janice bucked her hips harder and faster as she felt herself getting closer. She knew she was going to cum and didn’t want to stop it. The creature reached up and clasped his hands around her neck, choking her slightly. She gasped and fucked him harder. Her hands on both sides of his head. Her fingers gripped the pillows and her thighs clamped to the sides of his chest. He bucked his cock in her, so they were fucking harder and harder together. This was about all she was going to be able to take. She clenched her teeth and rocked harder on him. Her body moving faster, her neck still in his grasp. Through clenched teeth, he growled, “Cum on my cock.” Janice moaned again, “Ohhhh.. I’m gonna cum on your hard cock!” And that she did too. She came hard, with one final jerk. She pulled on his hair and bit his neck. He released her neck. “That.. Was.. So.. Good..” She said with a smile. “I’m glad you enjoyed that, but I’m not done with you yet.”
Before she knew what he was going to do, he flipped her over on her back and crawled on top of her. He positioned his cock and with one thrust rammed himself in, balls deep. Janice’s eyes widened and she nearly screamed out. Not from the pain, but from how good it felt. He began to fuck her harder than what they had been doing. He threw her long legs over his shoulders and pressed all of his weight down on her. He grabbed her hands and pinned them above her head, making her go crazy. He held onto her wrists with both hands as he fucked her. He let go with one hand to assault her nipples. They were so hard. He leaned down and took one in his mouth, swirling his tongue around it. She arched her back, and moved her hips up to meet his pounding thrusts. She whimpered as he bit her nipples. He fucked her harder and faster, growling in her ear. “I want you to cum for me! I want to feel it gush around my cock.” Janice whimpered and raked her nails across his back. She could feel some flesh beneath her fingernails. He didn’t seem to mind. He just fucked her harder. She cried out and bit his neck, as she came. Her body tensed up as she released a flood of cum all over his still rigid cock.
He slipped his hand down her body and pinched her clit, making her to squirm on the bed. He released her wrists and sat up, sliding out of her sopping pussy. He grinned down at her. “Get on your knees.” She looked confused for a second. He got up and kneeled down on the floor. He pulled out a box black box and opened it. Inside were various toys and lubes. He pulled one out and set it where she couldn’t see it. He got back up on the bed and sat behind her. He leaned forward and started nibbling on her ass. She sighed and relaxed, some, letting her head hang. He massaged it with both hands, then gave it a good hard “SMACK”. Janice moaned and looked back at him. He had a devilish look in his eye. She saw him lean forward his teeth nipping at her ass. She shuddered as she felt his finger massaging the hole. She nearly leaped off the bed when he spread her cheeks and let his tongue go to work. No one had ever licked her ass before. It was heaven. He stopped and pulled out a small vibrator, he put some lube on it and slowly slid it into her ass, her whimpering making him want to take it out and just take it right there, but he refrained.
He took out the vibrator and replaced it with a finger, lubing up her hole nice and good. She moaned when he slipped two fingers in, fucking her ass with them slowly. “Ohh that feels sooo goooood.” Janice moaned, while looking back at him. He lubed up another finger and stuck it in her ass. His cock on fire and the anticipation growing. He fucked his fingers in and out, her muscles relaxing and her hole being stretched to accommodate his girth. “Let me know when you want it.” He leaned forward, nipping her shoulder and scraping his teeth down her side. She sucked in her breath, feeling his finger working in her ass and his breath on her back. She was about to tell him to let her have it when his hand snaked up under her and began to rub her clit. He pinched at it, making her squirm a little. “Now. Fuck it now.”
He obliged by sliding his fingers out and then lubed up his cock. He spread her ass cheeks with one hand and guided his cock in with the other. He slid the head of his cock in, feeling her muscles squeezing as he pushed in. She moaned with each inch he pushed in. “More.” She turned back and looked at him lust in both of their eyes. He thrust in one last time, slamming  the last four inches in. “Oh fuck!” She cried. Janice shook a minute, almost cumming at the sheer intensity of it. She had never had a cock that big in her ass before. She loved it though. She pushed back against him and wriggled a little bit.
He groaned and grabbed her hips, relishing in the feel of his cock buried deep in her ass. He started to pump, feeling her ass suck on his cock as he plunged into her time and time again. She pushed back on his cock, moaning and whimpering for him to fuck her faster and harder. He obliged of course and Janice cried out, feeling her ass being stretched was the greatest feeling but to have it fucked by this beautiful creature was even better. She bit her bottom lip as he pummeled her ass. “Harder.” The creature smiled to himself. He had really gotten lucky with this one. He pulled out to the tip and then slammed back in, causing Janice to scream. It wasn’t out of pain though. She knew that if he kept that up she would cum again. He moaned loudly as he felt his cock twitch. “Ohhhh fuck!” Janice bit back a moan and looked back at him. She couldn’t help but moan when she saw him. His eyes were closed and his body was coated in a film of sweat. His muscles glistened from it and she could see his thigh muscles working as he fucked her.
He opened his eyes and smiled at her. She smiled back at him. “Talk dirty to me.” He looked at her for a moment then grinned. He was definitely lucky to get this one. “Alright..” He fucked her and then stopped. She cried out in disappointment and looked back at him. “What are you doing?” He returned the stare. “Tell me what you want.” Janice realized what he was doing and played along. “I want you to fuck me in the ass.” He sneered, pulling his cock out some. “Oh you do, do you?” He pulled it out another couple inches. “Yes I do. I want you to fuck me hard.” He pulled out another inch, staring at her, almost wanting to protest himself. “Fuck my ass. Fuck it hard.” She watched as another inch slipped out. She looked at him with pleading eyes as more of his cock started to appear. “Give it to me. Fuck my ass like the slut I am.” He grabbed her hips and leaned over her. “Bite the pillow you filthy slut.” She did as she was told, sliding a pillow towards her and putting her mouth around it. He stroked her head.
“Now bite it!” He yelled as he grabbed her hips and slammed into her as hard as he could, pulling her back just as hard. She bit into the pillow, it barely concealed the scream that she let out. He leaned over her again and said into her ear, “Now rub your clit.” She did as she was told, groaning when her fingers found the little nub. She rubbed at it and as she did she felt something pushing into her fuck hole. She looked down and realized that he had grabbed one of her vibrators and was going to stick it into her. “I want you to fuck yourself with this while I fuck your tight little ass.” Janice obeyed reaching down and stuffing the plastic fuck toy into her cunt. She began to fuck herself with it, slowly at first, the vibrations making her shudder. He fucked her ass hard and fast, sometimes altering speeds, sometimes pulling out some of the way and fucking her with just the tip. She moaned and writhed on the bed. He had to slow down sometimes to keep himself from cumming too soon. Just because he was a creature, he was still just as sensitive as a human was unless she willed him to be more long lasting. But this fucking was all about her.
She felt him lean up over her, “Do you feel full my little slut?” Janice moaned and looked back at him, gazing deep into his amethyst eyes. “Ohh yess, soo full.” He slid his hand down around her tummy, raking his nails across the sensitive flesh causing her to gasp. He could feel her hand pumping the toy in and out of her pussy. He covered her hand with his own and removed it taking over pumping the toy in and out. He rammed it into her cunt a few times causing her to squeal. He whispered into her ear, “When I tell you, I want you to cum for me. I want to see the juices dripping off of your cunt.” Janice bit her bottom lip and looked back at him. The creature powered his cock and the toy in unison, sending Janice spiraling down into a world of pleasure. She pushed back against his thrusts, feeling herself getting closer and closer, trying to hold it back for him.
The creature’s breath was on her neck and she was lifted against his powerful body. “Now Janice! Cum now!” Janice screamed out as wave after wave of pleasure ripped through her. She cried out and writhed against the creature’s body. Her pussy began to spasm and her ass twitched. This was the most pleasure she had ever had and it was taking hold of her so fast. The creature cried out harshly, “Where do you want my cum?” Janice knew what would happen if he came in her ass. She would lose this feeling and she could probably benefit from another mind blowing orgasm but had another idea. “My mouth, I want to taste it. ” She told at him.
He pulled his cock out of her turned her around, stroking it hard and fast. He groaned when she flicked her tongue out over the tip, gathering the precum. She opened her mouth just as the creature let out a harsh cry and spilled his cum into her awaiting mouth. Janice lapped it up gladly and swallowed all of it. The creature looked down at her and grinned, his body shaking from his own orgasm. “Do you feel better now?” He stroked her cheek and she smiled at him. “Yes much better, thank you.” She laid down and stretched looking up at him. “So is this a one time thing?” She asked him, “Or do I get to feel this kind of pleasure when I get lonely again?” The creature leaned down and lay next to her. “You won’t remember any of this after I’m gone. It’s forbidden that we let people remember the pleasure.” Janice looked at him a little bit of hurt shone in her eyes. “I don’t understand.” The creature touched her shoulder gently. “If you were to remember what kind of pleasure you received then you would want it all the time, and not being able to get it would drive you crazy. None of your lovers would compare and you’d be frustrated all the time.” Janice nodded looking into his eyes. She noted that he was beginning to change again. She started to see her own face staring back at her. Janice leaned forward and placed a kiss on her lips, running her hand back over her body, and closed her eyes, drifting into a nice and peaceful slumber. Her reflection smiled and got up off the bed, He put the toys away, and with a few thoughts, put Janice back as she was before. Her pussy and ass became the same size, as if a large cock hadn’t entered her at all. She would just have the little mark on her thigh and this would all seem like a dream to her. The creature stepped back into the mirror, casting one last glance back at Janice, smiling at her.